*Sigh*

We talked for half an hour tonight. I'm not sure if it made me feel worse or better. I think it's a little of both, strangely enough, if that's even possible. I really don't know how I feel right now, and probably won't until this weekend, when he and his buddies are in town. Hearing his voice was so difficult, and it was hard because some of the stuff we talked about, like family stuff, were things that we used to talk about, before. It was normal, like nothing had changed. Except everything has changed, and I don't know what to say except I want to see him but I don't. And with his friends coming along, I wouldn't even get more than five seconds anyway, and I am not sure how I feel about that either. Thus, all I can say right now is *sigh*.